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04:18 pm: OK, I know, it's been a while
I don't know, I kinda don't see a purpose in this whole blogging about my life thing. I like Alex's idea of blogging about politics and what nto but I don't know enough and am not motivated enough to do that either. I mean it seems like no one really cares to read this though. I met a new guy, but he lives all the way in florida so I don't know. i mean I'm just kinda in the middle of mass confusion about everything right now. Guys, life, my blog. I'm thinking about going to a new church on Wednesday nights for a better, more involved youth group, but again, that's something I'm not sure about because I love my church. We just never do anything. If anyone reads this at all, they'll probably just think I'm a rambling idiot and they would be correct. I've got nothing of great interest to report and thus I feel I really should just stop now. If anyone has a good idea for blogging about let me know 'cause I'm trying to think of something and nothing's coming to mind.

09:14 am: Prom, Spiderman, and things like the drive-in!
So this weekend has been pretty good. Friday night I went to the drive-in theatre and hung out with a bunch of my friends. My friend met a guy who she's kind of informally dating. Spiderman 3 was the feature movie, and to be completely honest, it wasn't very good. I was up til 3 AM talking to my crazy friends (yes, James, that refers to you too).
Saturday I laid around the house doing absolutely nothing. I stayed in my pajamas and everything. My ex told me he loved me, and I just asked "why"? lol He can't seem to get over me unfortunately! I didn't really do anything worth writing about yesterday though.
Prom is in less than 2 weeks! I'm going down to TSB for mom to sign the paper Tuesday, and I'm finishing up my shopping. I've got to pick up a necklace. I've been looking around trying to decide what I want to do with my hair. There are too many ways to put it up!! I'm pretty excited, well except for having to deal with my ex. Oh well, I'll just ignore him and have fun with my friends. Well, I guess that's about it. I'll write more sometime. Don't ask when, 'cause I've become completely inconsistent with this thing. Anyways, have a nice day!

02:22 pm: It's only been forever!
OK, so after almost a month of not updating this thing, I'm back. There's not a whole lot to say. Prom is in 3 weeks, so that's kinda cool. A lot has gone one with my exes since I last posted but I really don't care to go into it. If you don't know and are curious, just ask me. I'm going out of town tomorrow to Knoxville for my dad's company picnic and then we're going to Dollywood on Sunday as a sort of mini vacation. It'll be nice to get away. I'm probably going back to TSB next year, that is if I can work out the details of my Spanish classes, and I can only do that if Mrs. Beuford calls me back!!! Agh!!! Oh well, eventually I'll track her down. I'm currently hating men/boys/guys whatever you prefer to call them. I prefer to call them jerks. lol There are a select few exceptions, but not many. I guess when a guy says he loves you and then gets back together with his ex immediately, he didn't mean it in the first place. I mean I wasn't really hurt, because I didn't say it back and I knew he still had feelings for his ex. It's just that he still hasn't told me. I had to find out from someone else. I wasn't seriously thinking about dating him anyways. It'd be way too complicated. My friend is 5, almost 6 months pregnant with her baby. It's going to be a boy, Jonathan Michael. That's pretty cool. The only other thing is that her brother who is sort of a friend of mine is driving me batty!!!! He follows me around and calls me constantly! I can't escape it! I don't want to be mean but I want him to leave me alone. Oh well, I'll be okay. I guess that's about it.
Love y'all!
Ash

Tags: guys suck!

04:35 pm: Frustrated!!!!!
Ok so lots of drama going on lately. I got into a huge huge argument with my ex from California. So far he's called me heartless, selfish, and not to mention he's trashing my friend. It's one thing to bad mouth me, but my friend has nothing to do with it so why involve him? He said he never loved me and that I was nothing. I'm just so sick of stupid stuff like this. I've been so ticked off all morning that I've warn myself out. I shouldn't let this get to me, it's not that big of a deal and it's not worth my time and effort but it bothers me to no end. I just wish exes would move on! Get a life! I've moved on, and i don't care anymore but apparently they're too busy trying to start crap to move on. That's OK, i'm more mature than that. I'm not going to stoop to their level. I'm doine with the drama and all the stupidity. I'm removing myself from the situation and refus toe be bothered by it. It jsut makes me crazy and upset unnecessarily. I'm letting go of my frustration and anger, and I'm choosing to forgive. But in choosing to forgive, I'm also recognizing that I need to stay away from certain people who have hurt me and will continue to hurt me. I'm done with it all.

08:30 am: WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Y'all, I went to a youth rally this weekend and it was amazing!!!! It's called Acquie the Fire, and I got sooo much out of it. God was moving in that arena so much. There were probably 5,000 Christians gathered together to worship God. The speaker, Mike, was talking about being branded by God. It made such an impact on me. I mean, will you let the world brand you as a "jock" or a "prep" or are you going to let God brand your life? The bands were incredible as well. The worship band, Unhindered, was probably the best. They were rockin' it, not to mention the lead singer was sooo cute. OK sorry, I know, I know, it's a christian youth event, I shouldn't be worried about who's cute or not but I just happened to notice that he was. Also we got to see Flyleaf and Skillet in concert. That was pretty sweet, although, my youth group seemed kinda dead during the concert, probably from lack of sleep. Anyways, we had a BLAST!!!!! I needed that boost from God! It was a great time, and if you've never been to one, you need to find the Acquire the Fire closest to you and go!!! It's an awesome experience, but let me tell you this, it will wear you out!!! I'm soooo beat, but it's soooo worth it!!!!

06:24 pm: Forever!
Ok y'all! I'm back again, after being away for 3 weeks. I went to Colorado the first week and it was amazing. I met a guy! I know, I know, I said I wasn't going to date til college but he's 19 (20 in June) and that's about the maturity level I was looking for in college anyways so whatever. He's a massage therapist and he *sigh* lives in California. Yes! I know! that's a long ways, but he's coming to see me this summer. He's awesome!!! Anyways, the next 2 weeks I was grounded. This past week was spring break and I have to go back to school tomorrow! YUCK!!! I got bunches of money this week from cleaning tour buses and babysitting though so that's good, and this weekend I was in Georgia visiting my brother where we spent a lot of time confused about where we were going and where we were. Plus, we waited for stop signs to turn green!! LOL crazy stuff. Anyways, that's my week in a nutshell, and there's not much else to tell ya! If you wanna know more, call me or IM me or something. Bye!!!

01:14 pm: A Decision I Have Made
Ok so I've come to a conclusion and as much as you may try to talk me out of it, it's what I'm going to do, or in this case not going to do. I've decided that I'm not going to date until college. That may sound strange but I've realized that dating in high school is A) pointless and B) too dramatic. I am so much more mature than most of the guys I know (save a few) and I figure when I get to college I'll meet older guys who are more on my maturity level. I've only had bad luck with guys since I started dating, and I just feel like I'll save myself a lot of hurt and drama without the dating scene. Some people don't seem to think I'll be able to do it, but I'm going to. I'm not saying that I'll not look at a hot guy but I'm not going to get into any relationships. This decision is the product of the last dating situation I was in which ended pretty bad. For those of you who don't know, I met a guy named Keith on Myspace and we were talking for a while. I gave him my number and we were really hitting it off. Long story short, I found out that everything he had told me about himself was a lie. So I mean needless to say, my luck with guys has been pretty unfortunate, but I'm not going to dwell on it. I'm going to be young, have fun with friends, and save the dating scene for a few years in the future when it's worth it. I'm not angry, depressed or anything just don't wish to put myself in situations where I'm going to get hurt again. It's not worth it. So anyways, that's the only real new thing as of late. Haven't heard from some of you in a while, hopefully will soon.
Luv y'all,
Ash

Tags: dating isn't ready for me yet!

11:35 pm: Screw you, too!!!
Ok, so the last few days have been helacious, I won't lie. I guess it started Wednesday. I was on the phone 'til 11:30, and got in trouble because I'm supposed to go to bed at 10. So I'm grounded from both my cell and the home phone until Thursday. Yes, it sucks, but it's my fault and blah blah blah. Thursday during the day was just boring school. Thursday night I met a guy I started talking to. His name was Keith and he's a firefighter in training. He was a pretty awesome guy. So today was a really good day. I was in an extremely good mood and all. When I got home, I started to talk to Keith, but then all of a sudden he got a 911 call he had to go to, so he left. That was fine, but then when he got back and I tried to talk to him, he ignored me. It hurts, but ya know what? If that's how he rolls, I don't want him anyways. I'm just lonely. I want to be able to be happy with where I am in life, as far as being young and single, but I'm having real trouble doing that. It seems like every time I'm single, some jackass guy screws me over and then I'm left alone again. My luck in love just seems to be nonexistent. Oh well, I've got my friends. Other than the whole relationships drama that I'm going through not a whole lot has happened. Well, I'll tell the story about the jackasses in the hallway LOL. I was heading to my 4th block class, and these two guys were standing against the wall, just kind of watching me. When I'd passed both of them, one said to the other, "Now grab her ass!" Guys in general (there are a few exceptions) are chauvinist pigs. I'm sick of getting those looks that guys give to a girl they think is hot. I want someone who likes me for me, not for my boobs or my ass. How come I can't be respected for my brains and beliefs rather than my boobs and butt? I give up!!! I'm going to become president and mandate that all men be put underground for breeding purposes only. Ok, sorry guys, I know you're not all like this, I just get on these rants and get so carried away. I cannot believe myself. I'm about to go to bed at 11:30 on a Friday night. That's so not like me. Normally I'm up until 2-3 in the morning but I'm just so ready to sleep off all my guy troubles. Anyways, I'm done ranting now. If you love me, you'll leave me a comment. If not, screw you too! LOL JK. Good night, have fun, be safe, and don't get screwed over.

Tags: guys should be put underground for breed

09:17 pm: Life
Hey all my crazy little friends! It's me, ya know, me! Ummm ... I don't really have much to say but I figured I'd update anyways. Friday night, I went and got my makeup professionally done and then went out to eat with my brother, sister-in-law, and sister. Saturday I went to my little brother's basketball game. Sunday I went to church, went to eat Mexican with some friends, and then watched the football games. If you're a Colts fan and are reading this, congrats. If you're like me, and are a Patriots' fan, well I'm sorry. We sort of just blew up in the 2nd half. We blew an 18 point lead, and then at the end we had to force something and it didn't work. Did anyone happen to hear about the drama with Bill Beillacheck? (I know I didn't spell that right). Supposedly he's involved in a divorce suit where he has been named as "the other man". I find that interesting because honestly, I never pictured BB as someone who would be in a situation like that. Any opinions? Well, that's about all I have to say. Leave me some love!!!!!

Luv ya,
Ash

Tags: love is a beautiful thing

03:51 pm: Last night!!!
Let me start by saying that last night was a blast but I'm utterly and completely tired. I went to Ritchie's senior dinner which was really good but I think his intention was to make me fat LOL. Not only did he give me salad, a ton of lasagna, bread, and hot fudge cake but then he gave me candy!!!! I mean geez, I need to lose weight not gain it! LOL It was fun seeing everyone though. I talked to James and Nick and the Amandas (hehe) and Justin. It was almost like a tease though, because who knows when I'll see everyone again. I saw Rhonda for a few minutes but she was going to a hockey game so I didn't get to talk to her long. We sat around and talked for a while after dinner. Ritchie and I kinda hung out in the clinic for a while before I called my brother. Then my brother came and picked me up, and I rode around with him for a while delivering pizzas. My sister in law was supposed to come pick me up at 9 (when she got off work) and take me home. Come 9:30 we hadn't heard from her, so my brother called her and she was throwing up with a stomach virus so she couldn't get me. After a whole bunch of drama and crap, I ended up riding around with my brother until midnight when he got off work. Therefore, I didn't get home until almost 1 o'clock, mind you I had school in the morning. Not only did I have school, but I had dishes to do. I told mom I'd do them in the morning. I overslept, so I got up at 10 after 6, did the dishes, threw on some clothes, brushed my teeth, and ran out of the house to meet the bus. Fun, fun!!! I'm beat like a dog! LOL I am however going out again tonight to get my make up professionally done, and who knows what we'll do afterwards. Anyways, I think i'm going to finish this up. If you liked what you read or if you didn't leave me some love or some comments or something. I miss you all like crazy even if I did just see you last night
Luv ya,
Ash

Tags: hugs to all my buddies!!!

06:40 am: UGH!!!!!!
Hey y'all, it's me!!! Haven't posted in a few days so here goes. Friday held nothing interesting, really. I went out to Chinese but the food sucked so we regret it. I talked on the phone all night like (til 2:30 in the morning LOL). Saturday, I got to go shopping which was fun. Some creepy guy came up and talked to me and my friend Emily in JC Penney's. He even asked for her number, and unfortunately she gave it to him. Then when he left, he hugged us. All I have to say is EWWWW!! LOL When he first approached us he was like, "Hey I'm trying to find something for my 13 year old sister for her birthday can y'all help me?" Well, once he had Emily's number, he didn't need anymore help with his sisiter, haha what a joke. I bought a new sweater jacket for only $9 and it's very cute. I ate at Chick-fil-a and Emily introduced me to something called Polynesian sauce there. It's a dipping sauce for your french fries and DAMN!!!! If you haven't had it, you need to. It's almost like sweet and sour sauce for fries but it is soooooo good. Sunday was pretty uneventful really. I went to church as usual. Dad and Will stayed home to build new steps for our front porch which is very good, I guess. The Patriots won Sunday!!!!!!!!!!! As much as I love the Patriots though, the better team didn't win. The team with the best chemistry and experience is the one that won. Yesterday I went to PAVE, and saw the cute doctor (yeah I know, he's in his late 30's and married but a girl can look can't she?) LOL Dr. Sonsino talked to me about getting tinted contacts for when I'm on stage and acting. I'm getting a new monocular and handheld magnifier. I go back to school today, unfortunately but I get to go to TSB in 2 days hopefully. I'm actually a little stressed about that because my sister was supposed to take me, but come to find out she doesn't get in til late Thursday night so I'm scrambling to find a ride. I think my brother will be able to take me, I just haven't heard from him yet which is really what's stressing me out. If he can't, Justin said that his brother can come get me. I'd prefer my own brother take me, but I want to go so bad that at this point, I just don't care. Well, it's 10 til 7 and the bus will be here somewhere around 7 so I think I'll finish this up. All in all this weekend's been pretty good. Leave me some love y'all.

Luv ya,
Ash

Tags: i miss my tsbers

09:08 am: Here I am!
OK, so I haven't posted in a while so here's what's new in life. My sister comes in in 3 days which is really exciting. We're going to ahve lots of fun going shopping, getting manicures, and just being crazy. Thursday is Ritchie's senior dinner and I'll be going to that. That should be pretty cool, to get to see the people I haven't seen since September 28th. Yes, I remember the exact date, but whatever. Um ... I go to PAVE tomorrow so that's good. I'll be getting a new monocular and magnifiers and stuff like that. I know this is really short compared to what I normally put up but I don't have much to say and I'm about to leave for church so I'm going to go. Leave me some love!!! I need it!!!

Luv y'all,
Ash

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05:25 pm: Life, love, the whole shabang!
Hey y'all, I'm back! It's been a few days since I've posted so here's how it's been. I went to the mall Friday with Alex and Kellye. We had fun, or at least I did anyways. I'm not sure if Alex had fun being drug around with a couple of girls, but hey, he didn't complain too loud anyways. LOL Saturday, umm ... I don't really remember much of it probably because I didn't do much. I didn't get up until 10:30 or so. I sat around for a while, then I talked to some friends on AIM. Some feelings for a guy I used to like started to resurface and since that certain person has a girlfriend, I tried to push them away. Later, I talked to Ritchie. Yes I know how some of you guys feel about that whole situation, and I've heard you say that I deserve better and whatever but I really like him. I probably shouldn't, after what he did to me and all. I've got a soft spot in my heart for him. He asked if I still loved him last night and my response was this, "I still really like you, but I'm not ready to love you again yet." Maybe I should've said, "No". Maybe I'm just desperate. He's not the only one I'm talking to, so don't think that we're going to get back together guarunteed. I'm talking to a friend of mine at church, his name is Demitri. He turned 17 on Wednesday, and he's really cute. He moved here from Russia about 3 years ago. No, he's not a commie. LOL So anyways, my guy situation is really screwed up. Maybe I'll just give up and become a nun LOL, or not. The last 2 people I mentioned that to cringed and said "Ew" so maybe not. Well, other than guys, I went to church today, hung out for a while but I'm not feeling very wonderful and so I came home, ate KFC, and have done nothing more. I watched the New England vs. New York Jets. My Patriots delivered a butt kicking!!! *hugs to Tom Brady* LOL Now I'm keeping tabs on the Giants - Eagles game. It's a very back and forth kind of game. The Eagles are up at the moment, 17-10. For those of you who don't give a crap about football, well skip this part then. Don't skip leaving me some love though. I'm done rambling about guys and football and the whole 9 yards. I'll just shut up now.
Luv y'all,
Ash

Tags: but football's great!!!, guys suck

07:15 pm: First day back
Well, y'all, I went back to school today and I got my schedule for this semester. Amazingly, I have no, and yes i said, no academic classes. They are all 4 electives, and easy electives might I add. I have Nutrition and Foods first block, Marketing and Management second block (which will probably be my hardest), Family Parenting Education/Child Development third block, and Theatre Arts fourth block. Talk about a cake schedule. That's a good thing since I'm taking a week off to go skiing which I'm very, very excited about. Oh? Did I forget to mention it here? Well anyways, Metro vision kids go on a ski trip every year and they called and invited me to go with them which is way cool!!! It'll be Feb. 25 through Mar. 3. The only problem is I don't know anyone who's going (which hasn't been the case in years past) but I'll go and still have fun. That will be my 17th birthday present from my parents because they have to buy my plane ticket. So that shoud be fun. I'm trying to start to feel better but it just isn't working. I used my inhaler today and it made my heart race and my hands shake and made me feel weird (just like the nebulizer although that didn't make my heart race). Umm ... what else?? I'm getting excited about my sister coming down too! She'll be down either the 17th or 18th through the 22nd. She's taking me to get my makeup professionally done which I've wanted to do for a long time, but thought it was too expensive. I'll probably hang out with her that whole week. We'll probably go out and stuff so that should be lots and lots of fun!!! Well, the guy I met at the mall, yeah he's stopped talking to me for some reason or another. He doesn't text or call anymore and he doesn't answer my texts or calls so screw him LOL! Guys are a dime a dozen, while good guys are one in a million. Well, I'm done rambling. If you love me, tell me. If not, go away LOL. I'm out for now, I'll write more later.
Luv y'all,
Ash

Tags: good guys are one in a million!, guys are a dime a dozen

09:33 pm: Alrighty then...
Hey y'all, how's it going? Well I'm doing pretty well, and yes I know I haven't posted in a week and a half, but here I am. I didn't die, just got to doing other things and forgot. Happy New Year!!! It's 2007!!! Well, Christmas went pretty well. I got most everything I wanted (a digital camera, leather jacket, about $100, some CDs, and some clothes) but as always my family Christmas was hectic. Then after Christmas I just kind of hung out with friends, went to the mall and bowling and what not. Then on New Year's I went to church as usual. We hung out, talked, laughed, and watched a video of various comedians which was hilarious. Something rather interesting did happen that night, my friend Travis called my ex, Ritchie. He used one of his crazy cartoon voices and messed with him for a minute before Ritchie hung up on him. It was very very funny, and when I talked to Ritchie the other night he was like, "Soem weirdo prank called me on New Year's Eve" I couldn't help but laugh, but I didn't mention that I knew who it was. Since then my cousin has stayed at my house for 2 nights. We were supposed to go to the mall today, but my mom ended up having my 2 year old cousin, so that didn't happen. I did however go to the doctor for the cough I've had for the past 2 weeks. They gave me a breathing treatment and that stuff made me so jittery and shaky. Mom said it's like drinking a cup of coffee but since I hate coffee I wouldn't have known that. I hate the way it makes me feel, but it did make my cough a little less tight. I've also got to take steroids in the morning which will probably make me extremely hyper and what not so that should be interesting. I do go back to school tomorrow, bleh!!! I'll survive though. Lots of family drama, which I won't go into detail on but it's been crazy the past few days. I try to stay out of it, for the most part, but it's hard when things are being said about you. So anyways, that's how things have been going the past 10 days. Not too bad I guess, but I really don't want to go to school tomorrow!! Anyways, I'm done with my narrative. Leave me some love if you make it all the way to this point.
Luv y'all,
Ash

Tags: screw school!!!!

12:37 pm: Well ....
Hey y'all, here's an update for you. I never thought I'd be putting this on here, but y'all, I'm single!!!! Not only am i single, I'm happy about it. It feels weird to be this happy, because I haven't been this happy in a long time. Ritchie cheated on me for those of you who are reading this and don't know, but then again i think most of you who read this regularly already know the story. Anyways, if you don't here goes nothing. Thursday at lunch he asked Amanda (Justin's girlfriend) to sit in his lap. I'm not one to tolerate cheating so when he called last night. I gave him a chance to tell me the truth, but he didn't. First he lied to me, then he told me he was just joking. Finally I got him to tell me the truth, that he was serious. He was very quiet. He kept telling me to remember that he loved me and what not. I'm sorry but what a load of shit! If he loved me he wouldn't have cheated on me. I'm sorry but he's a dumbass. He's pissed a whole lot of people off, he'll be lucky if he has many friends after this. So I'm single and looking forward to going out and flirting with who I want to. Don't feel sorry for me please, because I'm not sorry. It's his fault, and I'm glad to be out of that. Anyways, leave me some love or something, because i'm tired of not hearing from you LOL
luv y'all,
Ash

03:27 pm: Stuff
Hey yall, it's me again. My brother came in around 10:30 last night and I was very happy to see him. He's changed a lot and gained some weight (in a good way). He's out shopping for a car right now. I'm pretty happy, my cell was screwing up and my parents took it to the verizon store to be looked at and I'm going to get a new one. The problem with this is that I may be without a phone for about a week. The guy said it'll be here in 2-3 days but it may end up being next week because of the holidays. I'm happy about getting a new phone, but unfortunately, Ritchie's phone got cut off. So our talk time will be limited. My dad's still tossing around the idea of us getting together on the 30th, so keep hoping for me, as if I'm not hoping enough for myself LOL. I think that's all that's new. I'm out of school for christmas and have been for a day and a half now YAY!!!! Well, I sort of went off on someone yesterday and I sort of feel a little bad about it, but at the same time, I don't. People need to understand that a friendship is not just someone you run to when there's a problem and that's the only time you talk to them. So that's what that was all about. This person probably won't talk to me ever again or for a long time, but they needed to here what I told them. I probably put it a little harsher than I might should have, but I'm not really truly worried about it. They'll be alright. If the problem they claimed was a problem was really a problem (LOL) they would've talked to other people about it too, not just me. This was just a cry for attention and I'm tired of it. I can't stand when people do things just for attention. Get over yourself. So if you know who I'm talking about, and that person tells you something different than I tell you, I'm not saying that they're a horrible person but I know them to have lied before so be careful what you believe that comes out of their mouth. I guess this ended up longer and about my issues with people more than I intended it to but that happens a lot doesn't it? Well now you have some insight into my life. Things are going okay. There's some good things, but there's some bad things to counteract the good too. So I'm going to go try to find a guitar tab for a song my friend wants me to sing at church. If you know of a good Christian guitar tab sight let me know, but if not that's cool. Leave me some love, 'cause you know I'd do the same for you.

Love,
Ash

08:30 pm: Not much to say
Hey yall, lifes going pretty well I guess. I'm kind of bored. I had my 3rd block mid term today and although the actual test didn't go so well, I still made an 86 in the class which isn't perfect but for economics I thought that that was pretty good, considering I hated it. For my fourth block exam, since I've actually already had it, we went to sonic and i had cheesecake bites. Holy freaking crap, I know that fried cheesecake probably sounds really gross and is really unhealthy but wow!!!! It's soooo good. Anyways, tomorrow is first and second block exams and I'm leaving at 11:05 which will officially start my christmas vacation!!! Woohoo!!! Do some hard praying for me though. I know I asked yall to pray in the last one that there's a chance I could come back, but now on a more short term basis pray that dad will agree to meet Ritchie and his family in Dickson so we can actually see each other. My brother comes in tomorrow for a couple weeks so I'm excited to get to see him. I probably won't update because my friend will be over till like 4:30 and then I'm going to get my brother. So anyways that's about all I have to say. It ended up longer than expected but hey, it's all gravy in the navy! LOL Leave me some love, I know you love me!!! Everyone does!!! LOL
Luv to all,
Ash
P.S. good luck with midterms